I swear I never meant to leave you in the rain...

Hello one and all

well, another dull week for me, except for Saturday which was AWESOME!!! Alex you were sorely missed though. I have vowed to wear my false eyelashes at all times as they seemed to get a good reaction from everyone which made me SMILE. Also Zuby staying at mine was a brilliant new experience. She saw the wall of fame for the first time :D

Sooo the past week has been rather average, which is incredibly dull i know and doesn't make for verry exciting reading and i do apologise for that. BUT i will try, just for you all because i loves ya :D

sooooo....whats being going on with this little homie?

Well i have FINALLY caught up on the big bang theory and i am so utterly in love with sheldon its ridiculous. I know its hard to believe as he is so anal etc etc but i think me and him could be very happy together. But on a serious note, i do think that he and Penny do have a soft spot for each other deep down and could make a very cute couple <3 but then maybe i am just delusion :D but i am also glad Sheldon has stopped his hate of Wil Wheton.

I've spent a lot of time this week downloading music, mostly old tunes but some excellent new remixes (yes i am talking about T-Pains sample of Lily Allen) added into the mix. I've also been a little poorly this week. Think my immune system is generally just crashing due to the amount of stress i happen to be under. Although, i have completed 3 assignments i still have another like 5 to do :/ soo a touch of happiness dabbled with that ever so depressing rain cloud that can be seen in the not so distant horizon.

Uni this week had nothing of real note to mention, or at least nothing that i can dredge up from my memory that was worthwhile. The crush front has died down a little and yes i know some of you out there think i am incredibly fickle (no need to mention any names) but its kinda like i see the dude and my heart races and i blush and my mind melts but really and truthfully we have had no real discussion so i have no idea of his likes/dislikes etc etc. Also he has a gf and i would never go there, because it is a horrible situation if you are the girlfriend (i would know and it actually sucks so bad) sooo im thinking that i shall look to pastures greener.

I've realised ive been in a poop mood for the past couple of blogs and i do apologise but i just do actually think its cos the work has piled up on me and stress makes me feel so unwell :( enough of the self-pity though.

But i would like a bf now, i think im ready to embark on a proper relationship once again. Part of the problem is though, where do people meet each other? the general answer is at uni or work or in a social setting such as a bar or club etc. But i can't see how this is. i mean at uni you make amazing friends that you love but not in that way, work for me would mean a footballer and while im open to that (hello aaron ramsey) its never going to happen. And bars/clubs/pubs don't really seem to be the place to meet someone that doesn't want you just for sex. Because that is just another horrible feeling. You start to really like someone and then you realise that they actually don't care about you, or your brain or your personality but rather just how you look and more importantly how you look out of your clothes. Since Eoin, who whilst i no longer talk to or have respect for, did at least treat me well when we were together (most of the time) :/ this has happened to me and recently an old friend got in contact with me just to tell me how pretty id got since i was 16 and wanted to hook up.

I don't want that to be the story of my life

I know i can give off this kinda hard persona sometimes and laugh and joke but really like most people i just wanna sometimes sit at home with someone and just chill; no make up, in my pjs , stuffing my face.

Who knows maybe it will happen soon, but at the end of the day my main concern is getting my studies completed and to the highest standard.

I'm sorry that this was a slightly, okay majorly depressing blog but I've been doubting myself recently and just felt this was a good medium to let it out in.

and i'm not doing it for self-pity or pity from you guys cos i'm really and truly not, its just this is what has happened to me in the past week.

So

a sign off from me this week:

Food of the week: Hula Hoops

Song of the week: Amelia Jean by Jack's Mannequin

Peace out to you all

So much loveage

Kates <3